‘priorities‘ and ‘expectations‘ have always eluded me, but they shouldn’t at all
I avoid expectations + priorities as much as I avoid pain. Funny, because GreatExpectations is one of the books that got me back to reading in my 20’s (after The Sun Also Rises, which I read because someone asked me how could I, being Spanish, which I am not, I speak it, have not read any Hemingway? Yes, I was shamed into it. Thank goodness.). It got me to begin reading the classics, after which I was unable to read contemporary literature for well over ten years — except for Hemingway. Of course.
It is March 2020, and a lightbulb went off — sparked, really. Instead of striving to do, I could abstain (definitely fodder for another day). I endeavor to keep my word, to stop doing things as supposed to begin doing. WHAAAT? How could I not have seen that before?
In the morning, I wrote a fragment of something I read:
With shepherd’s pie* in the oven, while reading in the living room tonight, I read:
I can hold out too. And for longer than that. So I am abstaining from putting off.
* … and no, no peas or carrots in my shepherd’s pie.