ultimately, i don’t act because

what I have been is a first-class procrastinator. Whether because of fear, perfectionism, or whatever else, I don’t know and will not dwell on the why because … why? I am blogging because a) I like to write, b) I want to write,

c) i’m moving forward

Almost wrote: “or sideways, at least moving.” But a phrase passed through my mind: not to the left or to the right. So forward it is. Obviously, I could live without blogging, but not without writing. Mmm, that is probably not true. But at this moment, it is. And today is what counts.

only today can i begin, move on, be still —

the options are many. Only today can I also let go of yesterday and focus on today with a faint glimmer of hope for the future, but still focus mainly on this day. So, for the moment, I am blogging again, being more social (maybe), and more on point. And open.