grandparents
photo of me and one of my brothers in a playhouse at our grandparent’s house (❣️ the pants )

Perhaps not everyone can say they super-love their grandparents, for whatever reasons, but I am fortunate to say that they still affect me even though they’ve been gone since the summer of 1997. They were very different from each other, and although I love them both, yes, I have a favorite.

the voice and figure of my paternal grandfather still loom over my life

Loom sounds sinister and heavy, which is not how I mean it. Hmmm, the definition of loom definitely does not properly describe what I mean. I should think of a better word, for sure.


My Mom’s father died when I was little. I only remember him at the wake. 😔 And he on the front porch with his arms wide open to receive us once. I was very little. Sofia, my Mother’s mom, also influenced me, but she lived far away, and we did not see her as often, which is why I don’t remember my grandfather much before he died. Sofia (Mami Fia to us) was the one who called my father James.


I still want to ‘show my grandfather’ who I am. (As if he didn’t know?)

This is a tribute to them.

What is this … ?

I would like to say, even if in a whisper, me. I want to be a tribute to them, if possible.


they are in everything i write
i heard, at christmas time (2023), from a pretty good dancer herself, that my grandparents were the best dancers she had ever seen 😍 is it possible to love them even more? i now know where the dancing gene came from ❣️ (plus, my mom’s pretty good herself too).