sowing, planting … forgiving?

Since I enjoy gardening so much, why don’t I post about it?

Wonder about this, shaking my head, and realize it is because the garden is not tidy and neat (same thing), which my house isn’t either, to my chagrin, although I enjoy that too. Obviously, endeavoring not to say love, but I do feel it and say it when I’m not thinking. Thinking … pesky little thing now and then … funny because I grabbed pen and paper to write:

breath is life. if i’m not breathing properly, i’m not living properly.

Anywho, I am taking a flower workshop, and as I learn, I realize how much more I want to learn and to do. Opening the intellect in this arena equates opening to writing again, redoing this site (which is about to collapse, I think, because the original template is too old), to self-care, house-care, relationship-care, opening, forgiving.

Sigh

Whatev. I have fallen behind in the workshop — it is intensive, lots to listen to and take in, but it’s taking so long because I take notes. To boot, I am quasi-taking a course on vegetable/herb gardening. I have notes all over the place, I mean that, not only at my desk, because sometimes I watch a video somewhere else, and, as we all know, I write on the 1^st thing near me on which I can write.

deep breath, baby, deep breath. it’s only paper. ha!

Regardless, I am excited about gardening this year (ignoring the feet of snow outside and the frozen stalactites hanging all around the roof). Planning, too. I am ready, and trying to get my husband ready, so we don’t plop plants and flowers wherever there is space.

1) We (I) will use (he’s toying with making) space better — we have so much grass/yard that it is feasible to expand the garden area. Learned that I can plant more in the same space. Spacing rules are for farms, not for backyard gardens.

2) We (I) will test the soil.

3) Not sure whether to plant wildly (so me), by item, or by color. This will/may 😆 depend on where my husband decides to plant tomatoes and peppers and ‘his’ stuff — therefore, why I’m hoping to rope him into this garden planning. It could be soooo gooood.

4) Would like to sell flowers/bouquets at some point and cover the costs of gardening.

have also realized how miraculous it has been that we have had some incredible, successful gardens, and why some have not produced well or much. We garden haphazardly — for real.