i have been scribbling about
trust + not turning away
from what we know,
continuously,
for days

I want to add | expand what I’ve written: in the novel, on a post, or a Sanctuary phrase. Yet the more I write and think of it, the further from “it” I find myself. I have prayed about it, seeking wisdom, patience, vision. But even the words for prayer elude me.

feeling a tad guilty, yet propelled,

I got up immediately when my body hit the chair to search for a prayer book in my bookshelves. Did not find what I was looking for. Did I give it|them away? Are they somewhere else? I’ve been decluttering and organizing, but all books in one place in my house is nearly impossible for me. Or is it? Digressed.


I picked two books, placed them on my desk, and searched the shelves again. Nothing. Did not go anywhere in the house — too early to be on the hunt. So I read from one of the books I picked, which has daily readings for a year, and which I had never read (think it was a gift — how timely!). My heart opened up. Then I opened the other,

written by one of my favorite authors ( i have many)

but which I have not read — and I’ve owned the book for over ten years! I recall opening and perusing it, but nothing else. I stopped reading it to jot this down because I am amazed at how apropos it is for me today.


i don’t want to stop reading it
or quoting from it in my journal for future reference
And since I think best with pencil in hand, I started naturally to write.

Gift from the Sea

Anne Morrow Lindbergh
it is perfect for today

It is nudging me to a place of peace, of undulations, of … I cannot quite explain it. It is what drove me to write because I almost crowded a quote at the bottom of a page but didn’t, and before writing the quote atop a new + clean page, I scribbled in orange ink:

 

DO NOT DO SUCH INJUSTICE!
I meant: do no such injustice as writing a great quote on the last line of a page, then realized, in orange ink again =),
… BUT IT APPLIES TO SO MUCH!

May the outward and inward man be at one.

SOCRATES, from Phaedrus

ps —

The day after, in the first book, I read that when we turn to God, we pray. It is so simple! Seems much of everything is simple. I am not oversimplifying 🤓 or over-generalizing. And I believe that is why, more often than not, I find it difficult to get out of my way.